I went to Krista and Anthony's Wedding today! I had a BLAST!! I was dancing and not caring what people thought or said about me. i was laughing and just being Myself... and I LOVED it.. I stayed till they turned the music OFF!!!! hahaha.. I was one of the last people there.... Good Times.. Good Times...
Came Home and went on FB... on my timeline i posted about me getting my car in 2009 and it took me to some 2009 posts... And i happen to come across a few posts from a guy i used to know named Andrew. Now.... Andrew is a guy i used to be really cool with, but we just ended up being on two separate paths in our lives... Learned a lot from him though... ANYWAY...i decided to check his fb out and see how he is doing. I was looking at his pics and i came to the realization that....its been almost 2 years since i talked to him.. He is basically a completely different person.. A stranger... someone i would not know the first thing about.. Same goes for me.. I have changed in these last two years... But i had not thought about how long it had been since i talked to him... Dang time Flies.. I mean we about to be in 2012 in a couple of hours!!!! It did make me miss him and I laughing about stupid stuff i will admit. But people grow apart.. That has been the theme for me this year... People Grow apart... I have lost more friends in 2011 and 2010 then i have gained. I am starting to be ok with being alone.. The older i get, the smaller group of people i associate myself with. I've changed. And not talking to someone for almost 2 years will have them change also.....
Time stands still for no one.. either you learn and grow from time.. or you stay stagnant and become dull.. I know i'm growing... cant say the same for Andrew cuz i dont know him anymore... made me miss his friendship a little, but its all good.. It was nice going down a brief memory lane...
Friday, December 30, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Language Barriers.
I stepped out of my comfort zone today..
They say the key to getting NEW results in ANYTHING is to step out of your comfort zone and do something NEW!
So...
I tried it today.
I Tried to hit on this dude while i was at work today.. but he did not know a lick of english..
Dang these Language barriers..
He was soo cute...
So i decided to try my luck..
He seemed like he was soo bored
So i Offered him my iPod so he could listen to music while he waited for his friend to come out of a deposition
That is when i noticed he did not speak english,
But he seemed intrigued by me.
I could have been imagining that but
I think i know when someone is interested or not.
Or maybe i dont,
But i decided to go for him anyway!
Started talking to him as best as i could
If all else fails at least i would entertain him and me for about 2 hours.
The convo was good..
Even though we did not understand each other a lot..
We talked about Music. Clothes.
Where he was from. and many other things
He had a tongue ring
and was licking his lips a lot.. ;-)
He seemed like he wanted to learn more about me.
Like he was interested in the things i had to say.
The connection was there..
The connection was right.
Love has no language
It is universal and needs no verbal dialog.
But...
This Language Difference might have been too much for him.
It made it difficult to really connect.
We laughed...
and Had a good time..
I gave him my name and number
He gave me his facebook...
I knew he did not have a phone
Because if he did he would have pulled it out and been on it or playing with it while he was waiting for his friend for 4 hours!
I came home
Relaxed....
I looked for him for 30 minutes on fb
but could not find him...
Maybe he will look for me
Or maybe even try to call me...
I doubt it.
But it would be nice if he did...
Either Way
I take away from this TWO things...
1). I had a good time learning about someone else.
2). It's about that time i go and Learn Spanish Fluently, so that i NEVER have this problem again.
So when someone asks me "¿Hablas español?"
I can look at them with confidence and say.. "Si"
And we can start this thing without any...
Language Barriers.
They say the key to getting NEW results in ANYTHING is to step out of your comfort zone and do something NEW!
So...
I tried it today.
I Tried to hit on this dude while i was at work today.. but he did not know a lick of english..
Dang these Language barriers..
He was soo cute...
So i decided to try my luck..
He seemed like he was soo bored
So i Offered him my iPod so he could listen to music while he waited for his friend to come out of a deposition
That is when i noticed he did not speak english,
But he seemed intrigued by me.
I could have been imagining that but
I think i know when someone is interested or not.
Or maybe i dont,
But i decided to go for him anyway!
Started talking to him as best as i could
If all else fails at least i would entertain him and me for about 2 hours.
The convo was good..
Even though we did not understand each other a lot..
We talked about Music. Clothes.
Where he was from. and many other things
He had a tongue ring
and was licking his lips a lot.. ;-)
He seemed like he wanted to learn more about me.
Like he was interested in the things i had to say.
The connection was there..
The connection was right.
Love has no language
It is universal and needs no verbal dialog.
But...
This Language Difference might have been too much for him.
It made it difficult to really connect.
We laughed...
and Had a good time..
I gave him my name and number
He gave me his facebook...
I knew he did not have a phone
Because if he did he would have pulled it out and been on it or playing with it while he was waiting for his friend for 4 hours!
I came home
Relaxed....
I looked for him for 30 minutes on fb
but could not find him...
Maybe he will look for me
Or maybe even try to call me...
I doubt it.
But it would be nice if he did...
Either Way
I take away from this TWO things...
1). I had a good time learning about someone else.
2). It's about that time i go and Learn Spanish Fluently, so that i NEVER have this problem again.
So when someone asks me "¿Hablas español?"
I can look at them with confidence and say.. "Si"
And we can start this thing without any...
Language Barriers.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Sex Dreams Again... REALLY?!
So... It is the Day AFTER Christmas!!! I have the day off! That's cool.. I get to rest!!!! :-)
But man!!! I have been having sex dreams like NO ONES BUSINESS!!!!!! I believe i had 2 IN ONE NIGHT!!! It was either one going into christmas day.. and one the night after Christmas.. or both in the same night...
Either Way...
When i say they felt REAL....
I could Literally Taste the salt in his cum coming out his dick.. (Now i know that was graphic.. but that is how real it was!!)
HHAHAHAHAHA
both of them had to do with friends from Breed that I thought I would NEVER EVER think about doing things with. And now being FULLY CONSCIOUS i still would not do anything with them..
But those dreams.. wow.. I think I need a cig! HAHAHA jp! HAHAH!
The first one just started out in the middle of us having sex... Out and in.. Round and Round, Kissing and hugging and just GETTING IT IN!!! it was not love.. trust.. if anything it was a ONE night stand... But that One night stand.. WOW.. :-O
The next one was a little more complicated.. it involved a guy i had had a sex dream about earlier in the year..(see earlier post about a sex dream with flying carpets and such!)
I was sitting in an auditorium with some fellow breed members just talking and laying on the floor and having a good relaxing day! When all of a sudden I see one of my friends sucking off another friend of mine... Then all of a sudden i am sucking his dick also (well after the one friend had finish and was not successful in making him cum) I was going to town on that thing also.. He was moaning and dong all of that.. and then someone starting TALKING TO HIM while i was sucking that thing like a lollipop... hahaha.. i did not care... I was enjoying myself! HAHAAHA ( <-----That sounds like a whorish mess!!!!) But then i i took a breath and when i had come back in for the kill, he had put it away!!! I was mad but hey.. what can i do?! haha. so I just got up.. And proceeded to go to the park and help the CHURCH that i attend OUT!
UMMM... CAN WE SAY... (SPEECHLESS) I Don't even know!!! HAHAHAHHA
anyway..I am glad I HAVE A Vivid IMAGINATION!!! But dang!!! Can these stop?! I love them.. But feel weird and DIRTY after I wake up!! HAHAH.. Like I need to take a Shower. They were Hot!! And I still get a mini smile on my face thinking about them.. But..I have to GET IT IN soon!!!!!! It's been too long, and these dreams I can tell are only getting more intense and More real by the second.. Whew..... Where My Dildo at?! HAHAHAHAHAHAH.. Jp.. I don't have one of those!
MERRY DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS Y'ALL!!!!
But man!!! I have been having sex dreams like NO ONES BUSINESS!!!!!! I believe i had 2 IN ONE NIGHT!!! It was either one going into christmas day.. and one the night after Christmas.. or both in the same night...
Either Way...
When i say they felt REAL....
I could Literally Taste the salt in his cum coming out his dick.. (Now i know that was graphic.. but that is how real it was!!)
HHAHAHAHAHA
both of them had to do with friends from Breed that I thought I would NEVER EVER think about doing things with. And now being FULLY CONSCIOUS i still would not do anything with them..
But those dreams.. wow.. I think I need a cig! HAHAHA jp! HAHAH!
The first one just started out in the middle of us having sex... Out and in.. Round and Round, Kissing and hugging and just GETTING IT IN!!! it was not love.. trust.. if anything it was a ONE night stand... But that One night stand.. WOW.. :-O
The next one was a little more complicated.. it involved a guy i had had a sex dream about earlier in the year..(see earlier post about a sex dream with flying carpets and such!)
I was sitting in an auditorium with some fellow breed members just talking and laying on the floor and having a good relaxing day! When all of a sudden I see one of my friends sucking off another friend of mine... Then all of a sudden i am sucking his dick also (well after the one friend had finish and was not successful in making him cum) I was going to town on that thing also.. He was moaning and dong all of that.. and then someone starting TALKING TO HIM while i was sucking that thing like a lollipop... hahaha.. i did not care... I was enjoying myself! HAHAAHA ( <-----That sounds like a whorish mess!!!!) But then i i took a breath and when i had come back in for the kill, he had put it away!!! I was mad but hey.. what can i do?! haha. so I just got up.. And proceeded to go to the park and help the CHURCH that i attend OUT!
UMMM... CAN WE SAY... (SPEECHLESS) I Don't even know!!! HAHAHAHHA
anyway..I am glad I HAVE A Vivid IMAGINATION!!! But dang!!! Can these stop?! I love them.. But feel weird and DIRTY after I wake up!! HAHAH.. Like I need to take a Shower. They were Hot!! And I still get a mini smile on my face thinking about them.. But..I have to GET IT IN soon!!!!!! It's been too long, and these dreams I can tell are only getting more intense and More real by the second.. Whew..... Where My Dildo at?! HAHAHAHAHAHAH.. Jp.. I don't have one of those!
MERRY DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS Y'ALL!!!!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Tired of it.
And the Dearest Love In All The world.. Is waiting Somewhere for me.... Is waiting somewhere..... Somewhere for me.... (Cinderella) Sigh.
Ok... So i am soo over this whole wishy washy, back and forth, emotional roller coaster i have been on in the past 8 months..
It's wearing me down!!!! sometimes I wanna say FOOF LOVE (I don't curse, but you get what i am saying) because i am trying to convince myself that i do not need or want it. Then sometimes i am like AHHH LOVE SEEMS AMAZING!!!!
I'm tired of it..
I can't keep going like this.. My tank is almost on empty...
I gotta fill myself up with LOVE... and have THAT keep me fueled and going...
SELF LOVE!!!!! love of myself.....
Its GOTTA COME...
It just has to..
Dang.. when did i become sooo dependent and wanting of love....?
Love is on my mind soo much Nowadays...
I gotta find another subject to think about... HAHAHA
Love=Confusion=Me...
Me - Love = Lonely? or Strong?
I dont know.. That's the Equation i have been struggling with for a while now.
Ok... So i am soo over this whole wishy washy, back and forth, emotional roller coaster i have been on in the past 8 months..
It's wearing me down!!!! sometimes I wanna say FOOF LOVE (I don't curse, but you get what i am saying) because i am trying to convince myself that i do not need or want it. Then sometimes i am like AHHH LOVE SEEMS AMAZING!!!!
I'm tired of it..
I can't keep going like this.. My tank is almost on empty...
I gotta fill myself up with LOVE... and have THAT keep me fueled and going...
SELF LOVE!!!!! love of myself.....
Its GOTTA COME...
It just has to..
Dang.. when did i become sooo dependent and wanting of love....?
Love is on my mind soo much Nowadays...
I gotta find another subject to think about... HAHAHA
Love=Confusion=Me...
Me - Love = Lonely? or Strong?
I dont know.. That's the Equation i have been struggling with for a while now.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
very random and short
So.. Once again i am here at Work.. Thank You Jesus! Just got done with all the mail business and i am about to get off in 34 minutes.
So... I decided to come on here and rant for a little bit. Nothing specific on my mind (I am starting to see that as a common thing on here.. just ranting) but......
I am trying to write on here at least Once a week...
Even if no one reads these i still want a weekly check in for myself. Cuz i know i will look back on these weeks, month, and years from now.. And i want to remember what was goign on in my life at the time of me writing these blogs.
So... I decided to come on here and rant for a little bit. Nothing specific on my mind (I am starting to see that as a common thing on here.. just ranting) but......
I am trying to write on here at least Once a week...
Even if no one reads these i still want a weekly check in for myself. Cuz i know i will look back on these weeks, month, and years from now.. And i want to remember what was goign on in my life at the time of me writing these blogs.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
On this here Thaksgiving.
The only thing missing on this here Thanksgiving night is my boo. Chilling...Enjoying Thanksgiving with my family. I can't wait to go to his families house in the early part of the day, and mine at night. Or vice versa... dang I am starting to realize that on this blog I am talking about how lonely I am, and how I can't wait to be in a relationship...well....this time of the year it gets kind of....hard....just want someone to hold. This will pass soon and I will be back to being happy with just me myself and I... until then, I will just daydream! hahahaha
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Lunch break rant and thoughts.
So i have soo much on my mind it is really ridiculous! I could literally start ANYWHERE! But as i take this lunch break i do nto have enough time to say EVERYTHING that i want to say. So i will start with what, to me, is the most important. hahaha.. I am skipping lunch and not buying anything BECAUSE i hate that I am spending soo much money on food and GAS! that is literally all i spend my money on... And I HATE that I eat out SOO much! But i cant go home and eat because i feel like the food that is there is not Mine. meaning i dont feel comfortable enough to just go in the fridge and pick something out and eat it, because i did nto physically go to the store and buy it! Sad it has come to that.. But again.. that just tells me that it is time to move!
Another thing is that i had THE MOST random DREAM i have had in a long time.. It makes me blush, but imma tell it anyway! HAHA.. So it was me and my friend Mike P chilling.. Just normally chilling, but this time we were on his bed and the bed was flying over different major cities. (Like the magic carpet from Aladdin!!! hahaha) then all of a sudden, just as to get comfortable, he pulls down his pants and his underwear.(OHH) Penis Exposed and All (UMMMM...). Then all of a sudden without ANY hesitation i roll over and start gobbling and slobbering on that thing! (AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!) The funny thing about it is that at first, Like for a MINI MILLISECONDM, he was shocked, then he just gave in and started enjoying it! I WAS GOING TO TOWN ON THAT THING FOR WHAT SEEMED ABOUT 45 MINUTES... I was giving it my all, but it did nto seem like he was hard at ALL.. i thought that thing was Flacid the whole time.. i think that is what made me keep going and going.. eh seemed to be enjoying it but the penis was sayign soemthing different, cuz it would not get Big and long.... then i stopped and was like.. ok.. i'm done... i guess you are nto enjoying it, and then he was like.. "OHH WHY YOU STOP.. KEEP GOING I'M ABOUT TO.. AHH.. AHH...(and he splattered all over the place!).... Cum....
HAHAHAHAHAHA.. I said "How in the world did you cum when you were not hard?!" and he said, "I was VERY hard" and i thought in my mind "Dang...then your thang is TINY!!!!!!!!!!!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA".... Then I turned to Mario (Which i am STILL trying to Figure out WHY he was in this dream!!!) and i said "did he seem hard to you?' and he said "I don't know"
and that's when I woke up!!!!!
UMMMM....this whole dream is disturbing cuz that is like my brother.... I was like... WHAT THE FOOF... I have NEVER had a dream about him, and the Dream that he is turns out to be a dream with me sucking him OFF! what in the WORLD DOES THAT DREAM MEAN?! Maybe it means i just need to get Laid! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Random Dreams... HAHAHAHA
Anyway, I find myself, while at work, dazing out the windows of the attorneys offices and just getting lost in my thoughts. The thought that is crowding my mind as of lately is of me finding the "One for me". I have been listening to Whitney Houstons song "Someone For Me" for the past 3 days over and over and over again. Just trying to figure out what I am LACKING.. What I could do Better.. What i could use less of.. or more of.. just to have someone even acknowledge i am there... I find myself feeling soo Overlooked and i know these are not good thoughts to have.. I fidn myself lookign at the hills and just thinking about me and whoever i am with on those hills having a good time.. making memories.. and just enjoying each other....
Just one person to look my way would be nice.. One person to come up to me and tell me i am attractive...
Fidn myself getting mini Depressed everyday.. now don't get me wrong.. I pull myself out of it everyday... (Thank Goodness) but it still would be nice just to have one person acknowledge I exist.
Last thing i will talk about ON THIS entry is.... I seriously am Tryign not to let Jealousy show its UGLY head in me...this issue just has to do with feeling Appreciated for all the things i have done.. People who do WAY less then me get acknowledged for things they hardly did, but i go full out and above and beyond.. and i get.. nothing.. I am not looking for attention or anything ike that.. but man.. just give me what i deserve...Show me that everything i am doing is not for nothing... Cuz if it is.. I will just STOP doing anything and everything, in regards to this dance situation. just sucks when you are not even acknowledged in your passion.
Anyway.. it's time for me to go back to work..
Have an AWESOME DAE! :-) hahaha
Peace
Another thing is that i had THE MOST random DREAM i have had in a long time.. It makes me blush, but imma tell it anyway! HAHA.. So it was me and my friend Mike P chilling.. Just normally chilling, but this time we were on his bed and the bed was flying over different major cities. (Like the magic carpet from Aladdin!!! hahaha) then all of a sudden, just as to get comfortable, he pulls down his pants and his underwear.(OHH) Penis Exposed and All (UMMMM...). Then all of a sudden without ANY hesitation i roll over and start gobbling and slobbering on that thing! (AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!) The funny thing about it is that at first, Like for a MINI MILLISECONDM, he was shocked, then he just gave in and started enjoying it! I WAS GOING TO TOWN ON THAT THING FOR WHAT SEEMED ABOUT 45 MINUTES... I was giving it my all, but it did nto seem like he was hard at ALL.. i thought that thing was Flacid the whole time.. i think that is what made me keep going and going.. eh seemed to be enjoying it but the penis was sayign soemthing different, cuz it would not get Big and long.... then i stopped and was like.. ok.. i'm done... i guess you are nto enjoying it, and then he was like.. "OHH WHY YOU STOP.. KEEP GOING I'M ABOUT TO.. AHH.. AHH...(and he splattered all over the place!).... Cum....
HAHAHAHAHAHA.. I said "How in the world did you cum when you were not hard?!" and he said, "I was VERY hard" and i thought in my mind "Dang...then your thang is TINY!!!!!!!!!!!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA".... Then I turned to Mario (Which i am STILL trying to Figure out WHY he was in this dream!!!) and i said "did he seem hard to you?' and he said "I don't know"
and that's when I woke up!!!!!
UMMMM....this whole dream is disturbing cuz that is like my brother.... I was like... WHAT THE FOOF... I have NEVER had a dream about him, and the Dream that he is turns out to be a dream with me sucking him OFF! what in the WORLD DOES THAT DREAM MEAN?! Maybe it means i just need to get Laid! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Random Dreams... HAHAHAHA
Anyway, I find myself, while at work, dazing out the windows of the attorneys offices and just getting lost in my thoughts. The thought that is crowding my mind as of lately is of me finding the "One for me". I have been listening to Whitney Houstons song "Someone For Me" for the past 3 days over and over and over again. Just trying to figure out what I am LACKING.. What I could do Better.. What i could use less of.. or more of.. just to have someone even acknowledge i am there... I find myself feeling soo Overlooked and i know these are not good thoughts to have.. I fidn myself lookign at the hills and just thinking about me and whoever i am with on those hills having a good time.. making memories.. and just enjoying each other....
Just one person to look my way would be nice.. One person to come up to me and tell me i am attractive...
Fidn myself getting mini Depressed everyday.. now don't get me wrong.. I pull myself out of it everyday... (Thank Goodness) but it still would be nice just to have one person acknowledge I exist.
Last thing i will talk about ON THIS entry is.... I seriously am Tryign not to let Jealousy show its UGLY head in me...this issue just has to do with feeling Appreciated for all the things i have done.. People who do WAY less then me get acknowledged for things they hardly did, but i go full out and above and beyond.. and i get.. nothing.. I am not looking for attention or anything ike that.. but man.. just give me what i deserve...Show me that everything i am doing is not for nothing... Cuz if it is.. I will just STOP doing anything and everything, in regards to this dance situation. just sucks when you are not even acknowledged in your passion.
Anyway.. it's time for me to go back to work..
Have an AWESOME DAE! :-) hahaha
Peace
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