He turned out to be......

The Best thing i Never Had.

wow Beyonce.. "Best Thing I never Had" DOPE SONG! I really love the words... Where was this song almost 2 years go letting me know everything was going to be alright and telling me i dodged a HUGE bullet?!?!

Well the song is here NOW and all i can do is listen to it and go.. "Yep..."

I use to want you soo Bad, im so through with that, cuz honestly you turned out to be...the Best thing i Never had!" Good Looking Out.

I'll never be the best thing you never had...

and what goes around comes back around..

DANG BEYONCE.. good choice in song.

I soo dodged a bullet...

:-)

Give in!

He just needs to Give in... haha! Cuz Everytime I see him The urge gets stronger!!!

Silly...

Silly of me to think that I
Could ever have you for my guy
How I love you
How I want you
Silly of me to think that you
Could ever really want me too

How I love you

You're just a lover out to score
And I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you that I see
What could it be

Oh love, oh love, stop making a fool out of me

Silly of me to think that you
Could ever know the things I do
Are all done for you
Only for you

And silly of me to take the time
To call ahead and pour the wine
And know you're not there

You're just a lover out to score
And I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you that I see
What could it be

Oh love, oh love, stop making a fool out of me

Silly of me to go around
And brag about the love I found
I say you're the best
But I can't tell the rest

And silly of me to tell them all
That every night and day you call
When you could care less

You're just a lover out to score
And I know that I should be looking for more
What could it be in you that I see
What could it be

Oh love, oh love, stop making a fool out of me

Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh
Silly
(Taral Hicks)

Good Song... i know people who have been there.. and i Myself have been in that situation.. Silly things people do when they think they are in Love.. It can be Embarrassing... haha.. I just chuckle at it now.. LOL. Very Good Song though! :-)

24 Year Old Dae reading the Notes from 16 year old Darrick.

On My First Day of Kindergarten, I remember walking and being really nervous because i did not know if they would like me. I remember my friends Jimmy Tyus, John Muna, Dustin Brown and Robert Reed. I also remember Making Jimmy Throw up because he can not eat salt, and i told him to eat salt and he did. He threw Up almost immedietly.

In Fifth grade I remember that i thought i was all that because i was the top of the elementary classes. Jimmy had moved to Mississippi and i just Loved it.

In Ninth Grade, I was nervous but i knew i would be alright. I did not know anybody and i was looking for somebody to talk too. Nobody would talk to me, and that made me upset and sad.

In the 12th grade, I really don't know what is going to happen... I hope it goes as I have planned, but if it doesn't i know that God had something else in store for me.
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Trip down memory lane I suppose. I was cleaning my room today and happened to look in some shoe boxes that I thought had shoes in them. Turns out. it was some of my old High school papers. Many of which were my doodling notebooks and notebooks of my hopes and dreams and just random thoughts on how i viewed High School and the events happening around me. I typed this out EXACTLY how i wrote it that Day while i was in the 11th Grade. I vaguely remember writing this, but i am sure the teacher asked us to write down how we felt in kindergarten, 5th, 9th, and in the future of our 12th grade.

I liked reading this because It brought back memories... And Made me see how hopeful (or Naive) I was. First of All... I spelled Robert's Last name wrong... How in the world is he suppose to be a good friend of mine and i could not spell his name right (get it together Darrick... It's Redd.. Not Reed) HAHAHA.. Then i was soo mean for making Jimmy Eat that salt when i knew he could not.. HAHA.. throwing up is never a good look on ANYONE!
And I was not Happy Jimmy left for Mississippi..He was my close best friend... when He left I actually felt really bad, and i believe i cried for a few nights when i found out he was leaving (I never told anyone that) He still lives out in the Misses and i have not seen him since the end of 4th grade. :-(

In 9th grade I was nervous and I remember not having any friends that Whole year. I was a loner.. that was a tough year for me.. it was not until I joined the Hip Hop team at my high school that i started making acquaintances (and one friend)
And as far a my Senior Year.. wow.. I was soo hopeful that it would be something that was EPIC! It wasn't.

Now being a Graduate From College for a Year, I look back on all that i have come from and all I have learned.. and it boggles my mind. My grammar in High school needed soo Much work! HAHA.. I am glad i can go back and appreciate these little notes i wrote to myself back in the day. I never thought i would be looking at them close to 10 years later with an appreciation for the boy i was..

Wow.. these notes are bringing me back. Makes me a Little Nostalgic.

I wish i could talk to the me i was back then. Have a one on one conversation with myself. Tell myself how things turn out.. Some situations I should change in order to make things a little bit easier. Roads i would avoid and things of the like. People i should avoid in order to save my mind some frustration and my heart some heartache.

But since i can not do that...looking back on these and saying.. "OH DARRICK IF ONLY YOU KNEW" will have to suffice.

I can't change the past, I can only Remember it, Appreciate it, and Move Forward.

Thanks Darrick for the Trip. If Only you knew what would be in your future.

To The Darrick in the future who will be reflecting back on the 24 year old Darrick... Keep chugging... Keep your Faith, and Keep your Head Up... I guarantee you It will be a ride you will Never Forget. Good or Bad.. make the most of it, and appreciate all you have and do. Cuz you never know when the ride will be over.. So enjoy it to the Fullest.

Humility.

Ugh... I hate coming off talking about myself a lot...
Or to what seems like bragging...
I don't like to brag.. I really don't
And i don't like to say the things i have done in my life.
Just because it may seem like i am bragging...
And yesterday.. It seemed like i was doing JUST that...

Bragging.

I was not trying to....

I went to My friend Tarick and Mustafah's concert they were playing in called "Battle of the Bands" and I met a lot of their friends..

I casually started talking, just being myself, and they would ask me about what i do and why? So i noticed myself having to put myself out there.. meaning why i do things and how much i have done..

Now it is not their fault i felt the need to say all i have done or what I want to do.. But just looking back on it now.. Every time i opened my mouth it seemed that i was saying something else i have come in contact with or something i have done.

From dancing (traveling to Japan)... To Gym workouts (me having a 6 pack and a V cut) to even the concerts I have been to (Lots)
I should consider it a blessing that I have had the Opportunity to do these things.. and stay Humble about it..

It is not becoming to put yourself out there soo much soo quickly in any aspect.

But then again.. if someone asks.. i don't want to hold back cuz i get excited and passionate about what i have seen or done or have accomplished... I am not trying to one up someone.. But i noticed yesterday that it seemed like i was...

Trust.. I know I am not more important then anyone else...

UGH i HATE THAT and i can't stand people who think they are better then other people...

I never thought i would be the one to have to eat a WHOLE HUMBLE PIE. Even if Tarick and his group of friends did not notice it.. just the simple fact that I noticed it should make me re-evaluate the way i approach things....

i notice that I have something to learn... Just.... Hold back..... Don't come off as that guy who talks about himself all the time.. or talks about all the things he has seen or done.. it may seem good at the time.. But it is not... It's not impressive.. Nor needed...

Life is about Learning lessons...

So i guess this was the next lesson i had to learn..A dose.. no... More like a super sized bug gulp..... of Humility..

05/05/05-05/05/11

Ohh.. HAPPY CINCO DE MAYO... AND CELEBRATING 6 YEARS FROM SENIOR DITCH DAY 05/05/05!!!!!!! :-)

Taking A Deep Look Into the Past Postings.

Alright! So.. I was taking a deep look into my past on this very blog... and i did this a few months ago... but this time i went even further back to the beginning of the blog and started reading what i was writing.. and Boy oh Boy... I LOVED THE WAY I WROTE.. the words i chose to describe the pain I was going through truly shocked me today. My formulation of sentences and the way they flowed together really showed that i honestly could have been a writer. Pain, i guess, made the true writer in me come out.. Now on this thing i just throw sentences together without much thought... I guess i became lazy! I love writing.. it sucks to think that the only time i get really creative with my writing is when i am in emotional pain.. I would hate for that to be the true case.. But imma try to be that creative even when i am happy... I have noticed also that my postings are not as long as they used to be.. and that could be a good and a bad thing.. good because now my postings get straight to the point without being long and drawn out... but bad because that means i may not be getting everything out that i feel i need to...
I guess i am becoming a simpler man... its cool in a sense.. almost 25 and simple... cool..