All I Need.

All I need right about now is some Good Dick and some sleep! How bout some good dick to put me to sleep....Then I will be good. :-) hahahaahahahaha!

Relationship Bug.

Sigh...

Got hit with the relationship bug again...

It's No fun being hit with that bug....

I want

Someone to Talk to...

Someone to Hold...

Just someone to be there...

When is it my turn?

I refuse to go back into a depression because i am not in a relationship.

"Just focus on me Darrick.. " Is what i tell myself...

And that is what i am trying to do....

But the busier i get..

The more i want to just be able to call that guy in my life and tell him about everything that is going on.

I have been on that B2K song "Gots Ta Be" for a while now.....

man this song... this song.. Has me feeling it...

But.... one thing i have learned from the 25 years of me being on this earth is that The more we try to force something.. the less satisfying it will be in the end...

25... and still have not had one person really care about me...

Sounds harsh, but hey.. the truth hurts sometimes.

Again i say, as i have said before on this blog, that maybe i am someone who will never find that special person.

People always tell me to not think that way, but there are tons of people who have died never finding that person.

And hey.. if that is my fate then so be it...

"Take It From Here" By Justin Timberlake Just came on my iTunes... this song is soo soothing and soo loving..

Man I wish someone felt like this about me...

Ok... Imma stop... i know this is not good to feel like this... Not good for any part of my being....

Imma just try to focus on my Job and my Dancing....

Fill All my time with them so that i have no choice but to not think about a relationship....

Relationships... What am I missing internally, What am I missing Physically, what must I learn, before i get into one.

Maybe I will never know...

Dang.. I hate when i get hit with the relationship bug.

Ok.. I am just rambling Now.. HAHA...

Peace.

Do You?

Song of the Night: "Do You" By: Ne-Yo <---- Fits for the night. Thinking... do you ever think of me?

New Job.. New Video... New Life!

I GOT A JOB Y'ALL.. this is my second week at the job and it is coo.. Just filing papers and everything.. I am at lunch right nopw so I am typing this on my lunch break.. Its Never enough time to do everything I want to do. HAHA.. But I am making money and that is all that matters! But man soo much has goen opn.. I went to Oakland, and all over the bay a week ago! I drove up there fo rthe first time.. Let's just say i don't need to do it again! HAHA! Everyone falling asleep in my car leaving me to stay up was nto cool.. ESPECIALLY since we left at 4 am... But i forgive them! HAHAHAHA! Just next time I won't be driving!!!! But I had mad fun out there dancing and celebrating my friend opening his own studio. I still have a logn way to go with dancing.. But i am very excited for the journey...

I am filming my very first Dance video this coming Friday!!!! AHHHHH!!!!! i AM NERVOUS AND AXIOUS AND JUST PLAN OL' EXCITED!!!! THIS, HOPEFULLY, WILL be the first of many more to come...

But with all of this going on and then getting a new job.. I am EXHAUSTED EVERYDAY cuz i dont get home till around one or two.. or sometimes three in the morning and i have to wake up at 4:45 am... so last week i think i got a total of 8 hours of sleep for the whole week!!! This week i am DANCING EVERYDAY and i have a performance on Saturday in San Diego.. and then Rehearsal on Sunday! Man this week is goign to be a tough one.. But.. I know i can do it!

But I just wanted to update yall (whoever reads this) on me..

OHHH.. tell me why my mom's Husbands OTHER child is living with us.. So there there are two children living with US!! it is a MESS!!!! I can't.. I just can't right now!!! HAHA...

Like I said in a previous entry.. IT'S TIME TO MOVE!

Peace!



10/10/11... Hmm... 2 years.. Nice...

Crazy How time Flies!!!!

September 2011 Rant

Yea.. It's About that Time!!!!

Cab Ride. Take Me There.

Taxi...take me to his home.
I wanna give him all of me cause I'm alone

The world is quiet
I wouldn't mind
Mere conversation
Can you be my ride?
What's your fare? (oh oh oh oh yeah)
Mister can you take me there.
Can you break a dub?
All I ask you is...

Taxi...take me to his home.
I wanna give him all of me cause I'm alone

Turn the radio down a bit...(smoking cigarettes...)
Would you be so kind to stop at a station?
I see the sign
Cause you need some air (oh oh oh oh yeah)
Mister can you take me there.
You can keep the dub
All I ask you is...

Taxi...take to his home.
I wanna give him all of me cause I'm alone

And I know he's watching the time... yeah
Told him I would make it
Just get me there safe (get me there safe)

Taxi...take to his home.
I wanna give him all of me cause I'm alone

Take me there.

Tweet-Cab Ride
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Read Between the Lines.... And you will see what I am trying to say!

Excited for Beyonce. But MAD!!! hahaha!

Excited for Beyonce to be pregnant.. But kind of mad she did the song "Love on Top" cuz that is the song I am also doing a video for.. So now i gotta hurry up and put it Out! HAHAHA!