Fall For Your Type.

This song is really speaking to me right now.....
The atmosphere i am in right now (nightime and rainy) only add to the effect.. gosh!
I can't explain this stuff at all...

Lyrics:

Can I, can I save you from you
cause you know there’s something missing
and that champagne you’ve been sippin’s not supposed to make you different all the time
it’s starting to feel like the wrong thing to do yeah
cause with all that recognition it gets hard for you to listen
to the things that I must say to make you mine
But live girl, have some fun girl, we’ll be fine
trying to convince myself I’ve found one
making a mistake I never learned from
I swear I always fall for your type yeah
for your type
tell me why I always fall for your type
for your type
I just can’t explain this sh-t at all
I just can’t explain this sh-t at all
I just can’t explain this sh-t at all
I just can’t explain this sh-t at all
i believe in people like you

What I Want.. The List......

Darrick...
What do you want...
I mean really..
What do you want?

I want....

I want....

I dont know... :-(

Can you get back to me Please...

Burnt Hurt

I can never be the person who says "If you betray me, we are through"...

I always Forgive...

I'm too Great A person.

I'm Serious.

Sometimes I feel I'm Always Waiting Around to get Burned Again.

He said:

You'll be Fine...

You Just need to find the Guy that could never bear the thought of hurting you like that.

Me:

Thanks Cougar Town For reminding me of that.

Beauty Found

As I was walking from my car to my Class... I happened to see something i do not see everyday.. Heck.. I hardly see it at all... what I saw was one of the most beautiful things i have seen in a long time... One of the bravest things I have seen in a long time... As I walked behind this beauty I started to watch as everyone approaching was either passing and staring or passing and smiling.. some with a smile of approval, and others with a smile of laughter and disapproval. I walked and as i was watching i started to think if i could be as brave as they were and are. I started to think what i would do if my boyfriend went to my school and one day grabbed my hand as we were walking. Would I trust him that everything was going to be alright? Would I be hesitant to have his hand clasped in mine. Fingers interlocked between each other. Would I trust that he was only doing this to let me know that he had my back and would not let anything happen to me? Would I trust that he only wanted to show the world his love for me? or Would I pull away.. letting him and myself know that i was not ready for the looks and the thoughts of people who really do not even matter.... It's all about me and him right......Yea.. But Actions speak louder then words... And that action would be something that I might not be able to handle right now...I am getting scared just thinking about being put in that situation... And as i walked behind them their actions spoke Millions of words.

This was a first for me.. Seeing them shocked the heck out of me..... All these emotions went through my body and all i could do was appreciate their courage and encouragement to be who you are.. Love who you love no matter what people say.. They really touched me.. and gave me a warm feeling i have not had in a long time and they will probably NEVER know how something soo simple that they did encouraged me and made me smile with a hope i have not had in a long time.

I want a boyfriend to challenge me.

Challenge me in ways that are uncomfortable for me....

In order to become a better man.

A better Me...

There is soo much more i could say about this picture and about their actions... Something as simple as holding hands in public can be life changing.. not only for them... but for others who are afraid to do that.. I will get there one day.. I know i will.. but this showed soo much courage!!!!! ... I tried to take it on the low to really capture the rawness of the situation...

This was Beyond Beautiful.....

This was...

was.....

I'm at a loss of words...

I loved it...

Thanks for the Encouragement :-)

Just wanna.

Just wants to be loved. But is realizing love is not in my favor.

Boy vs. Man

Me: its getting to the point to where i am fed up

and will never wan tto deal wth him

because of how he treated me when i was not even doing anything

Mr. Garcia: consider it a favor

you dont want people like that in your life anyways

save yoruself the future drama and just be happy that you wont have to deal with it later

Later... I sure ain't dealing with it later.. he did do me a favor.. I never realized that... He taught me something about people like him and how i can not stand them.. he is not on my level.... and will probably not be until he is 30! and by that time i will be on another higher level.. so him and j are good for each other.. same level.. same everything.. I'm looking for a Man who is a man and acts like a man... Not a Man who is a Boy who acts like a child.

Happy Easter! :-)

Disappearance

I just did something stupid that I will probably regret in the morning. :-/ I told myself do not go on that page.. do not go on that page!!!!! and what did i do.. Go on that Page... stupid stupid Darrick.. You just set yourself back 8 weeks. here we go again.

The things we think we are ready for many times we are not...

Time heals all..

And with time comes the disappearance of anything that could ever be...

Between me and thee.