I Have Noticed.

I have Noticed that when someone says they want a "Real True Friend" they end up 1). Pushing them away 2). Treating that person like Dirt or 3). Not knowing how to handle someone who will be that True friend to them. Think about it.. How many potential true Friends have you pushed away because of your Insecurities?

Seeing the Sunrise.

I realized this morning that Watching the Sun Rise while laying on the Beach would be something I would like to do with my Boyfriend...

Just want

I Just want those Butterflies.... That's all....

Random Dream = Maybe sooner then I thought?!

Yesterday i had a really nice dream involving love with this guy named Joesar.. Now mind you.. Joesar is NOT GAY and i was not even thinking abot him when i fell asleep... so for him to be in my dream was SOOO random..
I was walking through the mall by myself when i walked into a surfer beach store. (Dont ask me the name, cuz i don't remember it hahaha) and i saw him and i said.. "hey whats gong on man" and we started to have a brief convo.. then he asked me for my number and said we should start talking..So as i was about to leave he grabs my hand and proceeds to intertwine his fingers in mine..
SHOCKED.... YES
So then i gave him a hug and was about to leave again. when he said "Don't leave!" and he then proceeded to take a picture of me... So i hugged him from behind while he saved the picture and we went outside the store.. i sat on a bench and he sat on my lap... And i was asked him "I thought you like females" and he said "Well i was looking for a Guy that whole time i was in my last relationship with my last girlfriend.. I'm Bi." and i said "REALLY?! I would have never guessed before today. I thought you were happy!" He said "I was, but it's not what i wanted" and then the mall was closing so everyone was passing us looking at us weird because he was on my lap...
Then seeing how weird i was feeling he decided to get off my lap and take a seat on the remaining end of the bench. We then talked for some more hours until.....

MY PHONE STARTED RINGING and woke me up out of the dream!

The dream was nice though.. i had those butterflies in my stomach the whole time... That is something i do not feel very often. so they were welcomed!

Now everytime i see Joesar imma remember that dream! HAHAHAH!

It was nice though

Peace

1st Cousin Being Told The Truth!

Told my youngest Cousin I was Gay today (04/04/11).. She was shocked and it blew her mind... I thought it was time she knew... I waited till he was in high school to tell her just so that she was a little older..Cuz i came out about 3 or 4 years ago.. but that would have made her 11....so that is too young.. But i did not want her to be a senior in high school not knowing... She told me "You do not fit how i thought gay people acted!!!!" i knew she would say that.. it was just funny to see how she reacted.. Now i know her WHOLE thought of Gay people HAS FOREVER CHANGED! Let's see if it's for the positive or the negative.

Say The Word.

Why is it that Straight men have a hard time even saying the Word "Gay"?

Gay Guy's Advice = Straight Guy's Access to Vagina?

Lately i found myself helping men become more confident when it comes to women. doesn't mater what age.. i find myself helping younger and older generations. i find myself Advising them on what to do in order to get the type of women they want. But i can't seem to run into the type of men i want. I know they are out there... but i have not run into any of them yet. HAHA.. the funny thing about the previous situation is that i found myself catching feelings for these straight men i was helping.. but i QUICKY had to laugh it off and look in the other direction.. It's fine that i help them... but they are always like.. HELP ME FIND A GIRL DARRICK.. C'MON DARRICK.. WORK YOUR MAGIC" and i am thinking in my head "Dang.. why can't I find the gay equivalent of you" or "Man.. if only you were gay" But i know that will never happen.. But the type of guys i like do not hide that they like men.. but they act like men also. strong bodied, tough men. Every time my friends ask me to hook them up it also reminds me of how much i miss a simple touch of a hand that really actually wants to be there.. a glimpse of someone who loves me for me... Anyway.. I told myself in 2011 I was not going to be focusing on Relationships of that caliber.. so I won't... But I just find it funny that all these guys now are asking for my advice on how to get women... Advice from a Gay Guy. HAHAH...