Always Dissapointed.

Sigh... I'm always disappointed when it comes to Jose. I hate how he makes me soo happy when I'm with him...and soo dissapointed when I'm not. Meaning he always puts me on the back burner. I say I'll never be put there again... but I always get placed right back in the back. I don't know how to break this cycle. My heart is tired of hurting... when will it be my hearts turn for happiness? :-/