Being Gay

To me..... Being gay is one of the hardest things i have to deal with....
to seeing friends wanting to kill themselves
to just feeling like i am Not wanted or even needed...
just because i am gay.
I went out yesterday for a friends birthday and saw how easy it was for her to get and talk to guys...
when i try to do that.. i get stared at and rejected quicker the an old bottle of rotten milk..
and i ask myself..
what is wrong with me?
Am i ugly,
Do i stink,
what is wrong...
I always seem to get looked over for some reason....
Today i am a lot stronger then what i was 365 days ago..
But i still feel that it is not enough
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Sigh.....
soo much is going through my mind...
i have written and deleted soo much of this post...
it's crazy..
bottom line is...
Sometimes i think being gay is the hardest things i have to deal with.

How I Got These Scars.

Oct. 10th?! What?!

It's something about October 10! This day is starting to show a pattern.. maybe i should be paying attention... Hmmm... I've never felt soo much Deja'vu in one day before.... and it was REAL Deja' Vu... Literally the same thing happened this year that happened last year... October 10th.... This one day is starting to have great importance, whether for the good or the bad... let's see what happens october 10th, 2011! HAHAHA

10/10/10

Happy 10/10/10.. Enjoy this Lucky Day!!!! hahaha..

hmmm.....

does the person create the journey, Or does the journey create the person?

1

Today... unofficially.. but today... saturday...makes 1.

haha... it's funny cuz without this event.. this Site would not have been created.

So the good comes from the bad...

I think i will make some scones now...

Peace!

One thing I miss Most.

I want.....
I need...
I wish......
I contemplated....
I often contemplate.......
I desire......
I conspire.......
I regret.......
I suspect.....
I live........
I love........
I miss........



Writing.