Summer Kickoff/Graduation 2O1O

So this week i will say officially kicked off my summer... I mean.. went to the Mountain of Magic Twice in One week... Started working on my Body... and am getting ready for a vacation i soo deserve...
I gotta wash...Pack.. and then i am OFF! I am excited... Gonna see the sights and just really take in Everything i can. It's not everyday that I go out and explore... So imma make the most of it.
Me and my mothers relationship is getting better... Slowly... But better nonetheless...
Oh my gosh... you know what i just realized...
I DID NOT TALK ABOUT MY GRADUATION FROM COLLEGE!!!!!
wow..
i cant believe i let over two weeks go by without writing about it...
Well OK.. here is goes..

So my last semester in College i managed to get 5 A's and 2 C's! I am very proud of that...
This semester was not easy...
Having to wake up at 4 in the morning, get dressed, and leave my house by 6 at the LATEST because of all the traffic just to get to class by 8 in the morning was not something that was easy to do. Then to be at school until 10 p.m. was also draining. To then go to Rehearsal for Breed at 10:30 p.m. till about 2 or 3 in the morning, then have an hour drive to get home or stay in a hotel room because i had school the next day.. was not easy at all... Then to make time for homework, projects, friends, family, dealing with stress, depression, anger, all while keeping everything together.. was tough.. I honestly thought i was going to fail my classes this semester.. So to get the grades I received... was AMAZING! but that is what hard work and dedication does.. it pays off..
So overall my G.P.A for the last 5 years was aiight.. I mean.. I wish it was better but its the best that i could do with the situations throughout the last 5 years i was put through.
Wow... my college experience.. wow...
Its over...
i have learned a lot since coming in 2005... But i still feel the same...
Been through a lot.. but still feel the same...
I guess i am still Darrick,,,, But with a lot more knowledge on people and information...
Every year brought about different obstacles for me to get through .... Polishing and refining me into who i am today..
The people who taught me those lessons will probably never know what they put me through... but its all good..
But i guess that is what college is for... To learn.. not only about whatever you are majoring in.. But to learn about yourself...
I stepped out my box plenty of times, and sometimes crawled back in.. HAHA.. but i am a stronger, heart hardened individual because of what i have learned.. man i want to name some of the things i learned.. but for the sake of things getting long in THIS post.. i wont.. maybe once a week i will write on an experience i had in college and what i learned.. title the lessons.. "What I learned" haha... Anyway...
Graduation...
RIGHT... That's what I was talking about..
I had two different graduations..
One on 06/22/10 and one on 06/27/10
The graduation that was on The 22nd was the Black Graduation..
That graduation was fun and many family and friends and people i know came out.
Had a great speaker who talked about... ?.... dang.. I can not remember.. but i remember it was good!
Then off to san diego i went to perform with Breed.. so I did not get to hang out with anyone who came to that graduation...
But thats Ok...
Then the next graduation i was late.. HAHA.. i had to wak in with the communications department! haha.. it was funny..
But that one was a bit longer because it was the whole Liberal Arts Department Graduation.. there was plenty of people there.. and at that graduation everyone and their momma was trying to do it big! HAHA! it was nice though.. I have a few pictures.. i will upload some of them later...
I am glad that it is over..
But it is bittersweet.. Because now there is NO safety net under me.. I do not have the excuse of saying "I am in school" anymore.. I am nervous that i wont find a job.. I need a job.. hahaha.. But i know everything will work out the way it is suppose to..
So overall.. The Graduations were nice...Now onto the real World....
Let's Go!

Thank You.

After what I just told you... How I was on the back-burner to Everyone and Everything..

My Point was Proven Tonight....

I am Not, at all, Important to You...

Not even a little bit...

You Today have told and shown me this.....

But I Just did not want to believe it.

But I was even beat out by Alcohol.

Alcohol was chosen over me.....

An Inanimate Object.....

Was chosen.... Over me...

No Matter How you try to justify your reasonings....

The proof is in the Pudding...

I understand....

Your Point has been made loud and clear.

Thank You..... For Letting me Know.

Moving On.

What My Friend Mario Wrote to Me On Facebook.. It is all the truth..... Not even the simple seems like it's attainable....Actions Speak and Scream LOUDER then Words.......Darrick...Listen... and Move On.




I will say this only as an effort to make you fully understand just how wonderful you are.

I have watched you long for something that I always knew would never come to pass. Not because you are flawed or because you do not deserve what your heart desires. ONLY because the object of your affection does not deserve to be blessed with someone like you. I have watched you doubt yourself because you may feel like you are not good enough. I have watched you torture yourself in a fantasy world that will fortunately for your sake never become reality. I have watched this all the while hoping that one day you will begin to realize this on your own.
I cant watch anymore.

Lets explore this for a minute. Lets say that one day you get what you want. Do you honestly believe that it will be all that you dream it will be? Think of the person you met all those months ago, now think of everything you have learned about that person in this time, now think of the way that person treats you compared to how you treat them. Do you really feel that they have your best interest at heart? Do you really feel that this is the relationship you have always wanted? Do you really feel that they will change for you? I don't.

I have to ask why does it surprise you when you see there true colors time and time again. What are you expecting? I don't know if you realize what you are becoming? One minute your over it and I think all is great, and then you fall back in to the same situations, and fall for the same lines and you end up back at square one.

It is time to move one. It has been established that you cannot afford to keep this person in your life without heartache. You have tried over and over again and it does not work. I feel that it is in your best interest to cut them out of your life and move on. Stop hanging on to something so destructive. You are not a priority and you will not become priority overnight, over-a-week, over-a-month, year, decade, century, I just don't see it happening. The married man never leaves his wife for the mistress, and if he does she is only good until he finds another mistress. I just want to see you move on and be happy because that is what you deserve. Not to be stressed and feel inadequate. In the end the decision is your's but I honestly feel that you will never be fulfilled while waiting on the bench for your time on the field. You deserve to be a starter not a bench-warmer.

It's time for you to have everything that you deserve.
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(Darrick Talking)

All I wanted was to be friends...
And Feel appreciated...
I appreciate all I have learned in this situation...
I have learned the kind of man that I want....
You have helped me realize the things I value Highly in relationships and friendships...
The Things I stand for and value...
so Thanks!

And i am going to get all I deserve for being the kind, loving, caring, bend over backwards for the ones i care about guy..
I am worth more then how he treats me... I am not a bench warmer... I am a starter.....but that is his loss.. ON TO THE NEXT. Friendship that is! haha

Remembering What I am Worth.

You just gotta remember what you're worth
and if someone treats you less than that, you do not have to put up with that, and if they do not see the greatness that is in front of them..... its their problem... not yours.


Thanks Adam!

Saving All My Love for You

A few stolen moments is all that we share
You've got your family, and they need you there
Though I've tried to resist, being last on your list
But no other man's gonna do
So I'm saving all my love for you

It's not very easy, living all alone
My friends try and tell me, find a man of my own
But each time I try, I just break down and cry
Cause I'd rather be home feeling blue
So I'm saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we'd run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient, just wait a little longer
But that's just an old fantasy

I've got to get ready, just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
Cause tonight is the night, for feeling alright
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love for you

No other woman, is gonna love you more
Cause tonight is the night, that I'm feeling alright
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love
Yeah I'm saving all my lovin
Yes I'm saving all my love for you
For you, for you

-Whitney Houston
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I feel every word in this song... Man this song is amazing.... I don't know who i am saving it for... But.....I'm there.. Waiting.

You're Dialect is KILLING MY FANTASY!

Is it wrong or shallow of me to think someone is soo cute and everything. but i can't stand the way they talk? Is that something i should just get over?

What To Do! Decisions Decisions!

What should I do?! :-/